the last two days

babies everywhere. so our friends brought over their baby, ah she was so adorable! i haven't decided 100% whether i want kids or not. it will be a while until i do though. i sometimes want kids just so i can rasie them how i want them to be raised. but i don't know thats a long way down the road, for sure.

oh i'm babysitting my little cousin today, hah. she's cute... when she wants to be. i mean who wouldn't laugh at any two year old screaming words like booger and poop. i tried to do her hair, oh she looks crazy. but anyways.... uh i'm not even sure what i want to write.

i can always talk about tiffany, she's easy to talk about. well we have almost been dating for five months, it's not a long long time, but it's long enough to know a lot of things. like there has been a lot of stuff that has happened, and jeeze we both realized how strong we are and how much we are there for eachother. she's coming for christmas, well for my surgery too. i have actually talked to two people this week who have said that they thought we have been dating over a year. and yeah it feels that way [in a good way] i mean ask me any question about this girl and i can almost garuntee an answer. its just she knows everything about me too, and guess what... she still loves me anyway. that in itself is enough to make your heart spin, your lungs to be out of breath and your stomach to do flips. i mean she makes me excited for christmas, surgery and all. i haven't been excited about christmas in such a long time. it's just amazing. i want to grow to be a better person, not only for me, but for her. i want to be able to show her everyday how much i care for her. how much love i have for her. ahhh. ok i could seriously go on. but the onlyh person still reading this right now is her.

lets see what else. oh me and kaitlyn worked on this puzzle... actually finished it. on a friday night, college student, where were we? in walmart trying to find the best puzzle and getting kit-kats. i missed hanging out with her. its been too long. oh and we hugged!!! so lets see how long did we stay up working on that thing... we started at 11:30pm and ended at 6am this morning. she insisted that we finish it because 'we don't have that much left'.... 4 hours later the puzzle was finally finished. i kind of want to do a huge ass puzzle like 5000 pieces. but not the ones my great grandpa did, with the flowers that you could never find the pieces. those ones sucked. hmmm maybe that will be my new hobby. yay. ok i'm tired. bye.